Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Barbservations on Seasons

My  latest surprise, James
I used to sort of get annoyed when mom would say, I wonder where the time has gone; now I know exactly what she meant.  I find myself of late saying things that I've often heard her say & vow I would never say anything such as that; also, I now note my children rolling their eyes at some of my remarks (did I ever do that - oh, yes, many times.) Where, oh where & when did the summer of 2012 disappear to? One I will never forget as long as my fading memory lasts; it has been the hottest/driest one that I can recall, utility bills over the top due to a/c (tu, Lord for it!) & water bills due to watering plants, gardens; our dead lawns, creatures searching for water.  Just last year it was water, water everywhere!  Thankfully, we finally did get some of the prayed for rain & things greened up around here once again. I wonder if our water table is still way too low. I'll have to wait until Brian or Bob of KFVS imparts that info.

It has been a difficult summer in may ways; loved ones & friends have gone on before us, my daughter & brother lost their current jobs, another sign of the times in our area. Both of them had worked at their jobs for many years, my daughter at a factory in Sikeston & brother is/was a dialysis nurse at the University Hospital in Columbia. Her job is moving to southern CA, my guess being due to the fact they can pay lower wages & no benefits & brother's job was axed due to a reduction in our state budget. He will be 60 this month, so he has vowed to stay with the state 2 more years in order to get in his 30 years. Most likely, another case of being able to hire new graduates at the bottom of the pay scale. They assigned him to an administrative position & he hates not being able to work with patients. Mom celebrated her 92nd birthday in September. She is growing more frail, is confined to home due to extreme hearing & visual deficits, has to use a walker to get around the house, has skin cancer on her face. Our pastor was re-assigned & our congregation once again had to wait approximately 6 months to see who our newly assigned one would be. And, oh yes, it's election year, such an important, yet stressful, time in our lives. I just can't believe it's always been like this. During this season, I screen every telephone call to make sure it's not a political candidate soliciting.

As the late Jimmy Dean said in the song, "The Farmer & the Lord," you might think I have whining down to a fine art; but let me say this one thing loud & clear, I have been abundantly blessed through it all.  My quartet gave me a surprise birthday party that many family & friends attended, several of my "merry widow" friends & myself have been busy on the road attending singings, searching out consignment shops, & other varied activities, Trinity was assigned an awesome new pastor who already has us "up & at 'em", & it rained enough for me to plant a rose bush & tree that I had pampered to keep alive because the ground was too hard to plant them earlier. But, (drum roll), the best surprise of this season was the arrival of a new grandson!  He was a total shock to me since he didn't arrive in the usual manner. Loyd is over 40 & Heather is not as young as she was when their first 2 boys arrived. Jake & Joe are now tweens, so I assumed that was it for their family. James was the foster child of a family who attended church with them. I noted one night when the Dexter Senior Choir, of which I am a proud member, sung at St. Joe that Loyd & Heather were entertaining James & I could see their smiles. A short time later, they brought him with them to our family Sunday lunch & made the announcement. A little blonde, curly headed, cutie pie was joining the Rice bunch. Now I have a grandson who is 34 years & James is 17 months with 4 more in between, 1 granddaughter, & 3 greats! My oldest great began kindergarten this year at Dexter. Grandparent's Day was fun. Tanner's teacher was one of those who went to school in Bloomfield during the season I was an employee of my beloved school system.  I love my humble attempts to write, a lifelong dream of mine. I'm certainly not a gifted writer, I just enjoy sharing & celebrating with all the awesome folks in the area of the globe I'm blessed to call home. Alan Hedrick has given me this opportunity in the ShowMe Times, an entertaining, informative online source of news & the pictures are fabulous. Jessica Snider, who works for SMT, is "editor" & is doing a great job. 

I wish I could report that Imogene is improving health wise, but that is not the case. The top of our pyramid is transitioning & that causes her family stress & heartache during this season of her life. The women of her generation never cease to amaze me. What givers & positive mentors so many of their number have been & continue to be. Mom has worked hard her entire life, & now the ravages of time have caught up with her. Yet she continues to maintain her routine when I can hardly fathom how she can take one more step. She can't read the Bible any more, so I get to read to her & I often think it is a witness to our entire neighborhood since I have to speak so loudly. She reminds me when it's time to pay bills, wants to know the 5 W's (who, what, where, when, why) when I leave the house even though I'm nearing my 7th decade, asks me each Sunday if my bunch was in church & if not, why, & does lots of "wondering why." I am so thankful that she still has the capacity to do as well as she does. She vows she's anxiously awaiting her Master's call, yet she takes care of herself as best she can. I assure her God has such an important purpose for her & He will call her to her final home in His season. So, during this season of such beauty & grandeur, I thank God for the seasons of  life, each of them holds it's own lessons in life & living.  Winter is coming, but spring follows. May all the seasons that await us be full of love, laughter, thanksgiving, blessings!  

Barb




Wednesday, January 25, 2012

As For Me and My House

Chris is a new dad!
As mom was watching President Obama give his address last night, she commented, "signs of the times". I had a friend over for her birthday supper,  so to be quite honest, I was waiting with baited breath (lol) to see what all the news commentators would have to say this morning & for at least a week; therefore, I wasn't paying close attention. At promptly 7 p.m., she went to bed as always even though we still had company. You don't change routines/schedules around Em's house.


After she retired & my guest went home,  I was doing my usual pondering as I was sitting in my overstuffed recliner; what a blessing this sad looking chair is unless you are trying to do some low impact exercises while sitting in it.  I am working on improving my health;  one reason that motivates me is a new great granddaughter, Reagan Faye Guiling, courtesy of my second born grandson & his wife, Pam. Move over grandsons, now there are two girls to keep you guys in line! Mom's words popped back into my head & I was musing over the events of this past year - "signs of the time", a phrase that always used to put the fear of God in me at revivals. I lived in fear of the atom bomb, all world leaders except the ones from the US, (another lol), drunks, some of my kin, strangers, etc.  


What are the signs of the times in my life I mused - obviously, I am growing older & slower, yet still attempting to assist with mom who has now exceeded 9 decades of earthly life while looking forward to joining many loved ones & friends in her eternal home. I admit that two women in the same household can be trying at times, yet I rejoice that she is still with us, guiding & praying for the entire clan & she is still able to be in her home, though her steps are slow & guarded. We laughingly say that she interviews us about events in which she can no longer participate.  After returning home from a trip to Columbia to meet Reagan she asked tons of questions beginning with "when is Chris going back to work"?  Her work ethic is deeply ingrained within her personality, & she has never had any patience with someone she considers lazy. She is very proud of her family who are all hard workers/providers. I didn't inherit that part of her DNA; I love retirement, though it doesn't mean one does not work, just on a different schedule & in a different manner. I find myself joining her during her 12-2 p.m. nap time more often as time flies by.  


I wish I could say I have come up with many answers to the questions that arise in this life; actually, new ones arise each day. I do know that many of the things I feared have never taken place (as yet) & even if they should, I know I have an Anchor that holds steadfast & sure. I am heartbroken by the news of the loss of yet another dear heart, wife, mother, lovely lady to the ravages of the terrible "C" word; just received word last night that yet another beautiful lady whom I have known for many years had surgery yesterday for the same disease that has claimed so many beautiful people far too soon. Went to the visitation of the spouse of a dear friend last Sun. evening. I lost my love when he was only 57 years old, yet I thank God for the years together, though they were not always perfect. He deserved better than I sometimes was willing to give. As they say, signs of the times are everywhere, weather patterns, the way we humans behave, etc.  Yet, when I study the Word, so many things remain constant. The love of God remains the same, ever loving & forgiving, blessing us anew each day regardless of our thoughts, actions, behavior.  I absolutely cannot believe how quickly my family is changing in so many ways.  My eldest grandson will be 35 this year, my youngest granddaughter will be 10. I am loving life to the max watching, praying over 4 children, 6 grandchildren, 3 greats & many other family members & friends. I thank God for the gift & power of prayer & it blesses my heart when someone asks me to pray for them.  Mom & I are trying to hold things together at our address in the hometown of my entire life. I usually have something exciting (at least for me) to do each day.  I keep up with many family & friends via FB (speaking of signs of the time) - I really appreciate being able to operate my computer well enough to do this. 


One of my latest activities is singing with the Sr. Citizens Choir in Dexter (did I say senior - how can this be?) I love doing this & the friends acquired within this group. There are no tryouts & you can sing loud while making a joyful noise! The 85 year old pianist is absolutely amazing; she plays like I plan to in Heaven while in the alto section with Vestal Goodman (The Happy Goodmans) & Libbie Stuffle (The Perry's), stellar alto singers in my opinion. 


The signs of the times have proven to me many things including that all of us are empty people without God, searching for meaning after our failures.  Love is what enables us to pick up the pieces of broken hearts & lives & go forward renewed, undeservedly, but steadfastly. I am eternally grateful for His love, & the love of friends & family. I don't know how many miles are ahead of me, but I am enjoying the journey immensely & I am thankful for the signs that help keep me on the right track & all who assist in this process with their prayers & caring deeds of kindness & love.  


To all of those who have gone before during the sad times, I close with words from a song, "Till we Meet at Jesus Feet" & to those still on the joyous journey with me, "God be with You till We Meet Again".   You are all very SIGNificant to me!   Barb